The old oak tree

So today we hung out under the old oak tree in the backyard. Lucy loves stareing up through the branches and talks to the all the leaves. She thinks that trees swaying in the wind are absolutely brilliant. I'm making the most of these precious moments that we have together because I'm going back to work soon (when I get a job). I've had two interviews and both have been very positive so I'm sure that it won't be long.

Sunday Sleep-ins with Dad

Knitting: My February Lady Sweater

Well after it took me two years to complete Matty's jumper I turned out another in record time! and this one is for me OMG amazing! It's the February Lady Sweater by Flint Knits as inspired by the February Baby Sweater designed by Elizabeth Zimmerman. I have been imagining this project since I went to the USA and I brought the yarn over there especially for it. The yarn is muted golds, sages, teals and mauves and it should go with a lot of things, it's very understated (not my style at all usually) and the buttons are handpainted little wooden birds.

I love the sleeves, because they don't have decreases they came out a little bell shaped. I did do a little decrease under the armpits as suggested on Ravelry by some others who have knitted this project.

Christmas Day with Grandpa

Talk to the Foot

Fake it 'til you make it

I'm not sure if I'm under the weather or I have PMT or post traumatic stress disorder from becoming a parent but some days the enormity of raising a little human being feels so stressful. There are moments when I just curl up on the floor and have a bit of a cry.

When people ask if it's worth it (which they do) I say it's the best thing in the world but the hardest thing I have ever done. I have this massive amount of respect for parents now because I feel this background level of constant anxiety that Lucia is getting everything that she needs, enough food, enough stimulation, enough education, enough tummy time, enough sunshine, enough sleep..... that she will grow up to get the right education, find the right path in her life, the right career for her, the right life partner and that she will do all those things with no pain, sadness or hurt (which is impossible).

She is a constant joy and a constant concern.

Dalai Lucia says...

Happiness is not something ready made.
It comes from your own actions.

Quote actually borrowed from His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama :)